{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Inside out","provider_url":"https:\/\/peternoel.cafeblog.hu","author_name":"Peter Noel","author_url":"https:\/\/peternoel.cafeblog.hu\/author\/peternoelfreemail-hu\/","title":"Peter Noel: Gorilla vagyok - I'm a gorilla","html":"

(You can read the English version under the Hungarian text.)<\/p>\r\n

Tudod, pr\u00f3b\u00e1lom elengedni a m\u00faltat, s megbocs\u00e1tani neked, de nem megy. Az \u00e1rul\u00e1sod k\u00edgy\u00f3k\u00e9nt k\u00faszott az \u00e9letem f\u00e9szk\u00e9be, s amit ellenem \u00e9s a bar\u00e1taim tett\u00e9l, megbocs\u00e1thatatlan. N\u00e9ha \u00fagy \u00e9rzem, rossz vagyok\u2026 sz\u00f6rnyeteg, mert nem tudom elfelejteni, ahogy telibe tojtad m\u00e1sok sz\u00edv\u00e9t, becs\u00fclet\u00e9t, \u00e9s v\u00e1gyom arra, hogy megkapd, ami j\u00e1r neked. Bevallom, ha r\u00e1d gondolok, \u00f6k\u00f6lbe szorul a kezem, \u00e9s a legsz\u00edvesebben \u00fcv\u00f6lten\u00e9k.<\/p>\r\n

Tal\u00e1n t\u00e9nyleg sz\u00f6rnyeteg lettem. Tal\u00e1n \u00e9n sem tudok m\u00e1r nyugodtan a t\u00fck\u00f6rbe n\u00e9zni. De mondok valamit\u2026 Nincs az univerzumnak olyan szeglete, ahol az aljass\u00e1god ne s\u00f6t\u00e9tlene fekete lyukk\u00e9nt a csillagok k\u00f6z\u00f6tt, s ahol \u00e9n valaha is elford\u00edtan\u00e1m a fejemet, \u00e9s hagyn\u00e1m, hogy a gonoszs\u00e1god terjedjen, mint a gaz. \u00dagyhogy ne rem\u00e9nykedj\u2026 Mert, ha \u00e9n sz\u00f6rnyeteg vagyok, akkor te az \u00f6rd\u00f6g vagy. S \u00e9n nem fogom hagyni, hogy vigyorogva taposs \u00e1t m\u00e1sokon.<\/p>\r\n

Mondan\u00e1m, hogy kert\u00e9sz leszek, s kigyoml\u00e1llak. Mondan\u00e1m, hogy nem lesz f\u00e1jdalmas, ne f\u00e9lj\u2026 De nem fogok hazudni. Tudnod kell, hogy id\u0151vel utol\u00e9r t\u00e9ged minden. Nem ker\u00fclheted el \u00f6r\u00f6kre a jelenben a m\u00faltadat. Felelni fogsz a tetteid\u00e9rt. Mert, aki s\u00e1rral dob\u00e1l m\u00e1sokat, annak mocskos lesz a keze, \u00e9s messzir\u0151l b\u0171zlik.<\/p>\r\n

Tudod, a hegyi gorill\u00e1k t\u00edzszer er\u0151sebbek az embern\u00e9l, s a mem\u00f3ri\u00e1juk olyanok, mint a k\u00e9pek. Sosem felejtik el a traum\u00e1kat. \u00c9let\u00fck v\u00e9g\u00e9ig eml\u00e9keznek arra, amit vel\u00fck tesznek. Mind\u00f6ssze nyolcsz\u00e1znyolcvan maradt bel\u0151l\u00fck a F\u00f6ld\u00f6n a hozz\u00e1d hasonl\u00f3k miatt, pedig, ahogy n\u00e9zem \u0151ket, tudom, hogy t\u00f6bb embers\u00e9g van benn\u00fck, mint benned. Tiszt\u00e1bb \u00e9s jobb a sz\u00edv\u00fck, mint ami t\u00e9ged hajt el\u0151re.<\/p>\r\n

Sz\u00f3val, ma gorilla vagyok, \u00e9s \u00f6ssze tudn\u00e1lak t\u00f6rni. Fel tudn\u00e1lak falni, hogy soha t\u00f6bb\u00e9 ne \u00e1rts m\u00e1soknak, de v\u00e9g\u00fcl nagy leveg\u0151t veszek, \u00e9s a tekintetem a j\u00f6v\u0151be pillant. Pr\u00f3b\u00e1lok b\u00e9k\u00e9re lelni, \u00e9s \u00fajra csak ember lenni. De fontos, hogy meg\u00e9rts valamit\u2026 B\u00e1r a b\u00e9k\u00e9t keresem, de a sz\u00edvemben \u00e9l\u0151 gorilla sosem felejt el t\u00e9ged. Lehetsz k\u00edgy\u00f3, \u00f6rd\u00f6g, a legszebb pillanatokba bek\u00fasz\u00f3 s\u00f6t\u00e9ts\u00e9g, \u00e9n m\u00e1r ismerlek. \u00c9s most m\u00e1r mindig fel foglak ismerni. B\u00e1rmennyire is rejt\u0151zk\u00f6dsz, b\u00e1rmennyire is pr\u00f3b\u00e1lsz maszkok m\u00f6g\u00e9 b\u00fajni, elj\u00f6n az id\u0151, amikor felelni fogsz a tetteid\u00e9rt. Az \u00f3ra ketyeg\u2026 Tik-tak\u2026 Tik-tak... Tik-tak.\u00a0<\/p>\r\n

(A hegyi gorilla rendk\u00edv\u00fcl vesz\u00e9lyeztetett faj, csak mintegy 880 maradt a vil\u00e1gon, \u00e9s n\u00e9gy nemzeti parkban \u00e9lnek DR Kong\u00f3ban, Ruand\u00e1ban \u00e9s Ugand\u00e1ban. A Nemzeti Parkok t\u00far\u00e1z\u00e1st szerveznek kis csoportok sz\u00e1m\u00e1ra, hogy l\u00e1togass\u00e1k \u00e9s n\u00e9zz\u00e9k meg a gorill\u00e1kat. A l\u00e1togat\u00e1sok egy \u00f3r\u00e1sak. A DR Congo keleti r\u00e9sz\u00e9n fekv\u0151 Virunga Nemzeti Park az els\u0151 afrikai nemzeti park, amelyet 1825-ben alap\u00edtottak, \u00e9s 1979 \u00f3ta az UNESCO Vil\u00e1g\u00f6r\u00f6ks\u00e9g r\u00e9sze.)\u00a0\u2013\u00a0Peter Noel<\/a>,\u00a0Peter Noel Privat<\/a>,\u00a0P\u00e9ter Noel<\/a>. Szerz\u0151i \u00e9s minden jog fenntartva. Megoszthat\u00f3 v\u00e1ltoztat\u00e1s n\u00e9lk\u00fcl, mindennem\u0171 egy\u00e9b felhaszn\u00e1l\u00e1sa enged\u00e9lyk\u00f6teles. Sz\u00f3val, ha ezek ut\u00e1n is leny\u00falod a sz\u00f6vegeimet, megkereslek, \u00e9s bek\u00f6lt\u00f6z\u00f6k hozz\u00e1d t\u00f6bb h\u00f3napra. Biztos, ezt akarod? :)<\/p>\r\n[caption id=\"attachment_1165\" align=\"aligncenter\" width=\"300\"]\"Gorilla<\/a> Gorilla[\/caption]\r\n

You know, I'm trying to let the past go and forgive you, but I can't. Your betrayal crawled into my life like a snake, and what you've done to me and my friends is unforgivable. Sometimes I got a feeling that I'm a bad person... a monster, because I can't forget that you didn't give a damn about the hearts and honour of others, and I want you to get what you deserve. I admit, when I think of you, my fist hardens, and I'd like to shout.<\/p>\r\n

Maybe I became a monster. Maybe neither I can't look in the mirror. But I tell you what... There's no part of the Universe, where your vile act won't darkens like a black hole between the stars, and where I'd turn my head away, letting it spread like a weed. So stop hoping... Because, if I'm a monster, then you're the Devil. And I won't let you oppress others with a smile.<\/p>\r\n

I would say I'll be a gardener and I'll weed you out. I would say it won't hurt, so don't be afraid... But I won't lie. You must know, it's a question of time, and it will get you. You can't escape to the present from your past forever. You'll pay for your acts. Because the one, who's oppressing others, will be oppressed one day, and stinks like hell.<\/p>\r\n

You know mountain gorillas are ten times stronger than humans, and their memory is like pictures. They never forget their traumas. They remember what they went through till the rest of their lives. There are only 880 of them left because of the people like you. But as I'm watching them, I know they have much more humanity in their hearts than you. Their hearts are more pure and better than then one that beats inside of you.<\/p>\r\n

So, today I'm a gorilla and I could break you bit by bit. I could eat you alive, so you wouldn't be able to hurt anyone else, but in the end, I take a deep breath and look forward the future. I am trying to find peace, and being just a human. But you must understand one thing... Even if I am looking for the peace, yet, the gorilla that lives in my heart, will never forget you. You can be a snake, a Devil, the darkness that crawls into the best moments, I know you already. And I will always recognize you. No matter how hard you're hiding, no matter if you wear masks, soon you will pay for your acts. Time is ticking... Tick-tack... Tick-tack... Tick-tack.\u00a0<\/p>\r\n

(The Mountain gorillas are highly endangered species, only about 880 are left in the world, they all live in four national parks in DR Congo, Rwanda and Uganda. The National Parks organize trekking for small groups to visit and watch the gorillas. The visits last one hour. Virunga National Park, in the eastern part of DR Congo, was the first Africa's national park, established in 1825, and UNESCO World Heritage site since 1979.)\u00a0\u2013\u00a0Peter Noel<\/a>,\u00a0P\u00e9ter Noel<\/a>,\u00a0Peter Noel Privat<\/a>\u00a0Copyright and all rights reserved. Shareable without modification, any other use requires authorization. Well, if you steal my texts after these, I find you, and I move in to you onto more months. Are you sure, is this what you want? :)<\/p>","type":"rich"}